For the past two weeks, I have been attending a meditation group led by a psychology professor at my school. It’s a way of creating space for myself in the midst of schoolwork, home life, and other goings on. My teacher practices zen meditation at home and brings a type of zen-flavored mindfulness meditation to this group.
We sit, sometimes on chairs and sometimes on the floor on books or cushions, and breathe. Focusing on the breath is a way of brining one’s self back to the present moment, to “be here now,” as it’s said. We also do a walking meditation. I know very little about the practice or philosophy of zen but for me, the walking brings meditation gently into the arena of real life. It reminds me that even while moving, it is possible to be in the present moment.
In the US and most parts of “the west,” we are mostly encouraged to learn about ourselves and the world through experience and critical thinking. We gain knowledge by wrestling with ideas, by turning them over, reshaping and re-combining them until some sense of truth is felt. It is pleasurable to do this, and it does give us insight about our place in the world. But It is also amazing what you can learn about yourself by essentially thinking nothing.
I think it is very brave to sit quietly with oneself, to remove the mind from the day, the year, bygone years. My teacher mentioned something yesterday how attached we can get to our personal stories. I am not sure yet how I feel about the notion that all we really have is the present moment. I do know that yesterday, it was comforting to think about the possibility that my story, though it shapes me, is not me per se. It felt freeing. Big existential questions aside, I feel fabulous after meditation.
What are your thoughts? Do you have any experiences with meditation, or other practices you would like to share?